To dare, to dream, to win: July 2007

some updates... + happy bday to someone hoho

fyp fyp fyp.. received tt email tt day, they better give everyone a gd explanation...

need to improve my lab techniques yea. clumsy at times n this can prove decisive towards victory or not.. and i realise i have a counting phobia.. i dunno y when i count sth i have the tendency to scare i miss out one n recount.. try doing so for things of 10^-4 m small :S.

and receive the dreaded ns call. actually i dunno is dread or is $!#$!# cos last june go ict they say e next one (which is this one) is in june or next march. now they @!#@!$! put it in dec when i have an fyp to rush.. 1 week less for me. more effort required to be put in...

when cafe cartel yday at imm with the ****.. the service there is strange la.. 1 instance they keep helping u refill water n the next, nobody want to do so, which is very not nice if u ask me. and i didn't know student pass can get 10% discount.(shd have asked wad discount cards are there when e cashier ask "u have any discount card?").. only when i look n realise student pass is included. 10% - $4. wad a waste of $. didnt manage to get a cake cos spent too long in e lab, but finally saw someone's house after like 1 year 2 mths+++? lol tt's long =p

finally can stay home tmr.. really finally after though 1 week only. if dun have this now, next time where got chance.. ahhhh..

I am around

When the sun rises,
I am around.
When the sun sets,
I am around.
I am around, this is my call
The call of YMD

When storm comes,
I am around.
When people deserts,
I am around.
This is my pledge,
The pledge of the YMD

lab lab lab!

practically going back to sch almost every weekday for lab. n stayed till quite late everyday also..

think i practically learned the whole fabrication process alredy.. left the testing part.. need to improve on my blade skills though. had difficultly cutting it during the spinning and also e solvent exchange part.... n it might be damaging so i better imrpove! today did e viscosity test.. did like 21 samples each taking like more than 5 min + change n clean e rheometer each time.. super time consuming .. somemore i was doing solvent exchange in E5 (which requires changing e solvent once every 30 min for like 6 times ) while e rheometer is in E4.. so i end up travelling between the 2 places and this means 4 flights of stairs up n down each time... gd exercise ah..

planning timetable... still deciding wad to take.. more or less this time? if more, either not enuff mods or the timetable is really super big gap in between. which is not gd for me, i cant concentrate tt long.. thinking, deciding..

yday district leader training course was not bad after all, did learn something.. i must say i didn't go there in e best of moods, esp when i will be going there alone, and got institution meeting but cant go and it's very long 1230-6... but when i reach there i decided that since i'm there, might as well put in my best to learn and hence elevate my mood for it.

neeed to do more...

8 years..

since i last see most of my sec sch class mates..

it's nice to meet them finally after so long for a lunch.. seriously can't recognise some of them already.. and many have matured definitely.. behave so differently already haha

had lunch at "Changing appetite" at marina square.. think the food there is not bad! at least the parsaem fish n chips i try is gd!.. 1stly, the serving is large.. which is one big + pt.. haha. and somemore unlike normal fish n chips, beneath the crust is a layer of cheese... it's really YUMMY!

anyway, hope to see someone again soon. haa. they say 3 years from now, they wan go sentosa again lol

low life condition

i dunno what's wrong with me.. got tonnes of things to do, yet i'm doing stupid things like playing computer games e whole time i'm at home. :S

very low life condition...need to pick myself up..

"Life is forever a struggle and forever a challenge. Let us forever win. I am determined to use all my struggles in life as opportunities for further growth. My greatness lies in my mind. After all, the mind is a skilled painter. And I shall paint my life victoriously." -- Daisaku Ikeda

more daimoku is needed..

i need to challenge my weakness, my laziness...

i need the life force, limitations, wisdom n determination to face the challenges ahead.

dun understand why i feel like slacking more when i got more things to do..

no matter wad, i must do it!

project C.A.N

now i know C.A.N stands for collection in aid for the needy.

fun time doing sth for charity.. but think lack interaction within our own group..haha

e collection is rather fast, just 15-20 min per block n it's only 6 blocks for our grp. think i calculate tt me n qw visited 21`blocks..

mixed reaction from the residents. some're really very friendly n nice

nice experience maybe can do it again next year? haha

went for e gathering at js's house.. rather OTOT.. alot of food left after tt cos they cater.e food is not bad. OTOT so we played bridge. wow a long time since i last play it.. haha

n must thanks jiahao for driving me home. paiseh cos he have to work tmr yet he drove me home. was expecting just a ride to yishun..

gold gold gold!

it's not coincidence tt i get gold again despite only 3 real runs this time... i realise that b4 or after each of the ippt which i took, there are events happening..

1st one,30 july 2005, after the ippt in the morning, i had to go tampines for the NDP heartland rehearsal.. tt time i told myself i must get gold so i will be in high spirits.. despite all the obstacles then ( u can read it urself) i endured n got gold

2nd one , 10 Aug 06, 1 day after NDP, yea after that successful performance, told myself i must get gold the day after. quite a peaceful run n i did it..

so wad abt today? eh later going to celebrate my nephew's 满月.. then at nite district study, and tmr project CAN.. ya i told myself it must be high spirited all e way..

anyway maju change to computerise so no more details like last time where u have to wait for ur turn. oh ya, went with qw today. basically we finish the 4 static station in like 10 min at most? now still can OTOT choose wad station to do 1st.. yea.. our 1st is sbj.. got a 243. but when i landed, sorta feel a bit pain in my waist. .yea tt's a problem i fear. sit up was ok but think the PTI keep asking me to cup my ear. lol. i also fear tt it will affect my back then. but landed up it affect my stomach more.. really strain it. lol but everything was alrite..

then went down for e run. heard e PTI briefing those already down there. i was thinking i most prob will be the next detail. 没想到。。ended up they call tag 60 -120 to line up... it's like we are not even briefed lor n some might not know e route.. but suan le. it's do it or DO it.. no turning back

so started e run. unlike e past 2 times where i was e 1st to go, this time i was 117 so sorta far behind, cos its a 7. as usual i started out fast.. but i think too fast..nearing 400m mark think 1:23++.. then i decided to slow down. which in a way i think is a mistake. i even tell myself, e route like so short. and once i slow down i lose momentum.. cos really slow down then like no energy to run. 1st of 3 rounds is 2:58...

but i realise e maju 3 rounds basically shd be
1st rd: fast! best is 3 min
2nd round: endure n maintain!
3rd rd: go for gold!

ya tt's y my 3rd (3:12)is faster than my 2nd (3:18), though i slow down when reaching e end.

anyway, after e 1st rd, start of 2nd rd, suddenly feel sian cannot pick up e pace, somemore i was thinking it as 6rds instead of 3 rd which is psychologically unfavorable... but stopping is not an option.. even slowing down is not, once u slow down u can start up again. throughout the running i keep asking myself, wad is e purpose of getting gold this very try. and so the events which i have today n tmr come to my mind.. basically to be high-spirited.. tt keep me going through the 2nd rd. 3rd rd, dunno when my chest sorta ache, think of e sit up but i have come so far, no stopping.. ard 7:30 into my last 400 i think..

ya n it was all e way...

oh ya, i realise everytime i go there run there is some fast person. 1st time is some cmi mad guy 600m slow down, 2nd time is when i ending tt time slowing down, this guy overtook me with a 8:58.. n this time. it happened again. i dunno e guy is earlier number than me or later number. shd be later. but i run like 200. he overtook me. but this guy is really just FAST. think he at most 163cm? but his running frequency is scary. double mine i think.. i heard from qw later on he is some AHM trainer or runner. n i overheard his timing 7:47.. i think enuff said :o

anyway qw nv get gold .. hmm think he shdnt have followed my initial spd. n sian i cannot go back pace him again or sth. but still got time. hope he can strive for it ba..

a visit to the specialist..

left me $25+43.70 poorer

and the medicine cost $43.70...zzz

i dunno why i got 2 different types of painkillers.. a weaker one n a stronger one; eaet the stronger one if e weaker one dun work.. dun understand. a waste of money. somemore for e stronger one it has medicine to protect stomach cos e painkiller will cause gastric..

and a muscle rub + those plaster is given. if i not wrong again, i heard e pharmacist say i can use either one. if can use either, why give both? and the rub cost $14.. i thought hospital shd have some subsidy? and e paste one cost $20.. :o

oh ya it does have subsidy. supposed to be $45.80 but govt subsidize $2.10 thanks..

and i have to go for physio n e next time i go i have to take an x-ray. errr errr . seriously dun think i shd go back n spend these type of $

an internal struggle...

against negativities..

sometimes win, sometimes lose..

but Buddhism is about winning..

reflections...

YMD gym item!

thanks mh for these pics..

a fight against negativities..

today is a fight, actually everyday is, but today seems all e more needed.

eh 1stly is struggling to go for the meeting today; woke up feeling whole body just ache..ya esp my back pain again, dunno if it will affect my running :o.. anyway just feel nua, really dun wan to go out, but then yday already agree to come le, how can dun come..somemore i thought some of the members are coming also. how can i not go..but really up to the sec when i was still at home i really still dun feel like going out, even after i got changed.

but change already cannot change back so finally put myself out of home, and actually when i stepped out of the house i had a bad stomachache. quite bad, maybe eat too much and i didn't relieve myself b4 i go out which i always did(maybe too tired to even bother).. ended up i endured quite alot of e train yes all e way from admiralty to tampines by train. had thought of turning back a number of times, but tt will mean defeat..

so i just endured. realise the east west from city hall to tampines took like just 20 min? very fast indeed. but the obstacles didnt end there.. was already 10 min late when i reach tampines so need to take a bus. n sway sway e whole route to interchange was crowded. n i can only look as the 67 left. so i need another bus. ask gm to know 18 n 28 go. was thinking 23 got go but i not sure he not sure so i saw e 28 come n immediately go up. in e end? a 5 min ride by 67 took 20 min by 28 ....zzzz. and as i was reaching i saw a 23 come in also. tt might have been e 2nd one

so i reach at 245. ard there. n i saw e board.. WPW YMD meeting 1400-1530 :o 1530!. but things aren't tt bad, cos in end stayed till 4pm... only a few of us turned up but well think we had a gd dialogue abt yday's 7.7 + other stuff. anyway i was late so nv go toilet but in e end everything's ok..

yup well, at least i win over the negativity

but i will say i need more effort to conquer the stupid-coming-back-bad-temper of mine.. it's just flucutating though i dunno y.. strange but tt's not an excuse not to do my own human revolution n change..

A successful 7.7!

070707, a memorable day for many, esp those who getting married today.. but just as memorable for me.... a successful SSA 40th anniversary celebration cum youth festival at the SIS... with 10 k attendance..

a very different experience from the YCF in 2005 where i was a participant, now actually as a backstage, being a item marshal. i suppose until u become a logistics helper, u wun see the effort they put in. 1st to come, last to go.. ya today went like 2 hrs b4 the other participants and left after everyone did. but the soka knights are even more power, they even have to transfer the orchestra instrument back to the centers after we left. really respect them. it has being a 8-11 almost stand whole day affair...

and to make it worse, it was raining in e morning. though i was soaking wet due to the torrential rain but it did not dampen my spirits. i will say i lack the wisdom to do sth more clever than challenge the rain but must really thank qianwei also for helping me by a new pair of socks and even refuse payment! but the socks did not do much to my already wet shoes.. in e end i also sustain a bad 5cm by 3cm by 1cm high abrasion on my thigh?

but it's really worth it, cos the performance is a success. some guest commented it was a world class performance. but i suppose it's just more than the standard. people who are gd can easily perform sth that is ppl will "WOW" but if they lack the spirit to do it, no matter how gd is e performance, it will still lack the thing to make it world class. but think what e participants have today is "the spirit, the passion and the heart" to touch the audience with the performance. yes it is that. anyway this performance was carried out in under 3 months? with the ymd item having just over 10 trainings yet they can do a gym item to that impact.

this performance does make me rmb abt the YCF. where each item will just cheer other items on b4 n after the performance, and i do mean "strangers" cheering on "strangers", but then maybe not so "strangers" since we are belong to one big "soka family"!

but there is sth gd abt being in e logistics for 7.7.. i mean how many ppl will actually have the chance to go to the backstage of SIS? who will have the chance to go into the artistie rooms? yeah the rooms where maybe, SHE, tao zhe, zhou hua jian use b4?? anyway the inside are all posters of the different artistes who had perform at SIS b4, including SHE, david tao, jay, rain, jolin, etc etc.. tooo bad e SHE poster is not signed, else i sure will have stole it! =p

A postcard from a friend, a postcard from...

Singapore!

ya its not common that i receive postcards from SG.. this is a postcard from a YWD IIC, yong jie.. hehe

Dear Yuan Li,
really want to thank u for all your efforts in making MILKRUN a great success. =) Hope peishan've enjoy it too. Without e trainers n admin help, we couldn't have reach our target of 2000, and even surpassing it. It's your effort!! Thank u!! Hope tt u'll continue to keep this spirit high. continue to create many golden pages of wonderful memories in SD!

Rgds, Yong jie

"Today, I similarly entrust e youth with e mission of realising e next full-fledged stage of development in our worldwide kosen-rufu movement. For worldwide kosen-rufu is another name for world peace." - Ikeda sensei

A simple postcard of thanks but i appreciate it greatly. it's e simple thought, the effort tt touch ppl's heart. =)

NHR vol 3...

was reading the episode on Gandhi's non-violence for independence and i come upon this quote

"Nonviolence is not a cover for cowardice, but it is the supreme virtue of the brave." - Gandhi

die hard 4.0!!

eh sorry i suaku nv watch e previous 3, or maybe i watch but not much impression, but think this movie is not bad! maybe u disagree but maybe i 随性 so i feel it's gd enuff la...

enuff actions, long enuff, with some humor added, though i must agree it's abit too 夸张 at parts, i mean bruce willis really can escape death too many times, haha, and many a times, the gun is behind them but somehow they wun kill him in an instant.

but overall i enjoy the show. yes. tt's most impt =)

Liars..

it's ok to lie, but dun get caught, else e consequences is u lose the trust of others..

i'm tagged!

erm shd have hide my tagboard from alex just now.. wahaha.. anyway, wad i'm supposed to do, let me paste from alex's blog

Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

no need to ask others to tag ba... cos only ppl like me will bother abt this haha

anyway, weird things... 6 somemore....actually wierd is up to my own definition, so here it goes

1) if u think this 1st one looks familar, it's cos it's wad alex wrote! but i agree with him n i tell ppl b4.. tt is "Sleep is a waste of time!".. ya but unlike alex who slp only when he is tired, i believe u need a min 6 hrs of slp. ya e min tt's it. ok afternoon nap is welcome cos i will be tired then haha. anyway since i need only 6 hrs of slp, i can't slp early. because if i slp at 12am, waking up at 6am is like wad can i do? it's too early. so normally i slp at 2-3am and waking up at 8-9am, a nice time to do sth constructive =)

2)i take my weight a few times a day! ok this is weird but my weight it weird too la. keep fluctuating by like 2-3 kg. and yday i suddenly increase by 2kg.. dun ask me why. i'm trying to get fat, someone help me!

3) i like soft toys! tt's why u see a sheep in my msn pic..lol, i mean they are soft n cute wad. Nici has nice soft toys! with different sizes somemore.. so cute! but they are expensive

4)i'm a homely person! ya just like to slack at home.. walking ard? not really. i shop mostly only when i wan to buy sth, as in i NEED sth, more than i wan it. so when i go out, i will definitely get the thing i wan, anyway i m really 随性。。so not really particular wanting a certain thing, cos there are always alternatives!
ok only recently, i wan to get a watch, tt's a want, and hence requires walking ard n not buying.. as i say i wan to spend $ ...

5)i was tt lazy last time, that even if the coffeeshop was 50m from my house, i refuse to go buy. ya rather go hungry whole day n finish all e possible food in my house. weird enuff? i suppose so..

6) i m too tall too thin .. i look weird yeah?

I AM done! muhahah

MILK run!!

it has come to an end.. it has being a long day today, cos wake up at 620 for e 7.7 rehearsal in e morning

but milk run itself has come a long way... 2 months, had real fun with e planning with e trainers, though i miss e recees, doing souvenirs, helping out here n there, and of cos the training themselves are fun. i have definitely gone through this experience, n i will continue to do so..even jioing friends down for the run itself, i learned sth; i mean some frens i nv thought will readily agree to join, does join when i asked. ya, if i just think they wun come n nv ask, they will nv come, but when i ask, i succeed in getting them to come..this is same of things we do. something seems impossible cos we nv try, and just say no n give up...but when we did, we realise we can do it!

anyway it has been a very memorable experience, something which i rmb definitely =)

actually received some not so gd news regarding fyp. but there is nothing called impossible in Buddhism...i will make e impossible possible

anyway i got a great return from this run. fate or coincidence, i actually ran aside one of my 2 jc frens, from CO, which i will say are close to them, but cos they went NTU instead, i nv met since j2, yes a long 7 years. lost contact with them, but ya so qiao i was beside him, was hesitating to call out to him at 1st, but i did n i called wrongly.. lol. called weixiong instead of guoxiong but well, in e end i finished e run with him, and saw e other fren, whom we are classmates at sec3,4. so ya, sorta get reunited. think it's a big unexpected gd thing.

anyway, thanks for everyone who came for e run today, though i must apologise tt the t-shirts seriously BSS nv give enuff, can't do much too. but hope everyone enjoy the run, i'm sure they did. thanks =)

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